MyPromise Day 1 "Grrrrrr."

Yes, Day 1 again! It's really beginning to frustrate me all the little things that I allow to get in the way of me getting my blog on. Sometimes it's simply me not having the drive to do it, sometimes, there is so much life in my day that I'm too tired to come over here and blog, sometimes there is nothing going on except watching my husband suffer through his latest side effects, or ailments that are causing him to suffer in pain, the grief I feel at times is crippling. BUT! Determined I am to blog for 28 days straight, darn it!  So....grrrrrrr.....it's going to happen!

So, what's been going on here? My husband has been dealing with excruciating joint pain, bone pain and back pain...at one point last weekend it was an 8 on the pain scale. He has a lot of tolerance for pain, so 8 for him would be 15 for anyone else. It kept him up most of that weekend... breaks my heart to not be able to help him. I tried heat, massage, he rocked in bed with his knees pulled up under his chest...why does he have to keep having such extreme hardships? Why? It makes me angry....grrrrrrr! This week, it's not as bad, probably a 4 to 5, but before he can get his day going he has to allow the tylenol to kick in a bit. It's 3 and it hasn't kicked in yet.  It will, early evenings seem to be best for him.

For me, I'm finally on vacation for the summer. Middle School is officially over for the summer and I am one happy camper! I'm starting the summer off with 4 to 5 straight days of babysitting the grandkids. It can be work, but I have so much fun with them! They give me so much joy, God knew what he was doing when he gave me Grandkids! LOL Speaking of which, I'm off to get ready to go hang out with them!

MyPromise Day 4 "Countdown to Summer Vacation"

Today was day 4 in my countdown to summer vacation! Everyone, kids, teachers, staff, all are either stressed out with all the last minute things to do, or jumping off the walls with excitement. It's fun to watch these middle schoolers as we get close to the end of the school year, some it seems have no more brain cells, others thank goodness, step up to the plate and show that they are ready to move up a grade! I'm a Special Ed Aide in a Social Thinking Class where we address the needs of the Asperger teens. This has been my very favorite year. This job, even with it's more difficult days has truly been a gift to me in this cancer walk with my husband. It's allowed me to get out of self, and help these amazing students of ours, plus, as a bonus I've gotten to create a book of poetry, make movies, create new documents, help with art projects, and learn. I love it! Today was another hard day for my hubby, he did get a few more hours of sleep, which makes a big difference, but he feels achy all over and thinks that he may have a cold coming on. His temperature is normal, I pray that this passes. Tomorrow he gets a CT scan on his kidneys, the urologist wants a good look at the stones, or the smudge he sees there. Praying for good news. Will share the results tomorrow. Good night!

MyPromise Day 3 " Rinse and Repeat"

I feel like a Zombie today, walking around just doing whatever absolutely has to get done, which means laundry, feeding us, our dog, cat, fish, plants and the least favorite... poop duty!

My hubby had another very rough night sleep, which meant that so did I, plus, as a bonus I got to be very concerned about him. He didn't get any sleep at all because the joint pain was soo bad, at 10 he  climbed out of bed and sank into his easy chair, watched some racing and finally fell out at 2pm. This will pass, this will pass, this will pass...is my matra for the day. I will be heading to the bedroom very early today so I can get some sleep for tomorrow's early rising. I need to get back on track with sleep, exercise and journaling...all of which have been out of the picture this entire weekend.

Oh, while cooking brunch I noticed this very cool thing going on with my glasses...here's the photo!
It's screaming for a caption!! Got a good one, let me know!

MyPromise Day 2 "Not in a good place"

I was gone all day yesterday with my grandkids and when I got home (1:30am) I told my hubby good night and went right to bed. Around 4 he climbed into bed and all the rest of the night he kicked and rocked, his joint pain was through the roof. On the scale of 1-10 he called it an 8. "This is just hell," he said as he struggled to get comfortable. Nothing I tried to do made him comfortable, massaging the back of the knees didn't work, a heating pad didn't work, the tylenol didn't work, praying didn't work. Somewhere around 8am I fell out and then woke at 10. At 1pm I left to help some friends get set up for a big party they were throwing and came back an hour later. He hadn't gotten out of bed yet. It was 2pm. A little later he came out to the living room, he managed to get a few hours of sleep.

MyPromise Day 1....."Starting Over"

Ok, this Promise thing is beginning to really bother me. Did I take on more then I could handle promising to blog for 28 days straight? No, I think it's a small thing to do to honor me and my choice to LIVESTRONG. I was starting to beat myself up for not getting my blog on yesterday, but since that did not feel good at all, since it didn't help my self esteem in anyway, I decided to chuck that thought and just start over!! I've also got a new plan in mind, I'm going to be doing my blog in the morning since  that's when I do all my journaling. I like it! It's a good plan and starting over feels much better then giving up!

Have a great Day! More later! I'm off to see my grandson get his first Student of the Month award, then I'm taking them to see a San Jose Giants game where my 8 year old granddaughter and her choir will be singing the opening day song for the team! GO GIANTS! In the evening I may take them to the SOFA festival where their parents are working in a pretty incredible exhibit, it's called ART ALIVE!

I will be in touch with my hubby throughout the day, I'm going to miss him.

OH!! In 6 days I will be off work for nearly 3 months!!! Woo Hoo!