What's in the Name?

I had another name picked out for this blog, but it, and ALL the other names I tried using us a url were all ready taken. Frustrated with all the strikeouts, I typed in a name that had been picked out for the name of a website that was to be used by some old business partners, to my surprise, it worked! I knew that I couldn't use that name, so I thought about the reason for this blog and I nearly cried, which gave me an idea! I took apart the abandoned website name and substituted "Looking" for "Weeping" and wallah!! "The Weeping Jar" was given life.  What made this name stick with me was what happened next. You see, at first I thought this was a very odd name for a blog, it didn't feel right; however, when I googled the name and found information about "tear jars" I was filled with amazement at the perfection of the combination. It turns out that..."some women used tear jars in the customary way, crying into them after the death of a love one whilst others used them to cry into after their loved one left for the Civil War." My husband who is living with two cancers is a reinactor of the Civil War. He reinacted for 10-12 years before we met, then after attending a reinactment I got interested. Together we participated in events for three years before an injury, and then cancer struck. I portrayed a camp wife, he a sharpshooter. "The Weeping Jar" suddenly seemed the perfect name. My husband hasn't been able to reinact for six years now, and strangely enough, though he is always home, sometimes it feels like cancer has taken him off to war. Nothing is as it was before cancer. Crying helps me to let go and accept what is, while working at embracing everything else.